Currently Reading The Pleasure of My Company: A Novel By Steve Martin see related

AH ok so i hate updating. whats new...

hmm..lets see..this week..has pretty much been the worst week of the month. actually...it was only wednesday. terrible day.

monday- -i got my ticket for 300 dollars...told my mom, got grounded, got yelled at, cried && was ignored by my father..

tuesday- -...sucked. i hate tuesdays. found out some stuff about my sister that scares the crap outta me..nuff said.

wednesday- -o lord. gill text me in first period and said that one of the guys i used to date had met this girl that i have a high...dislike for. and this guy was supposedly talking crap about my two best friends..gill and samm. so of course..here comes the wrath of laura. i texted him and asked him what the heck was wrong with him...and we started arguing..and then he turned on me. he proceeded to say, "blah blah blah YOURE WORTHLESS, blah blah NO WONDER GUYS RUN AWAY FROM YOU more blah bliddy blah..YOURE A LOST CAUSE blah blah blah AND IMPOSSIBLE TO LOVE." then he told me not to be suprised if him && this girl showed up on my front porch..and just so happened to have sex. right in front of me. oh man..i lost it. so...yeah. the rest of my day at school...hmm not good at all. i cried all during fourth period. THEN...hmm yay. my dad called and said that he was gonna come get me cuzza the storm && i hadda 5oclock EATING DISORDER THERAPIST appointment. fabulous. made my day even brighter. so..i got in the car...my dad finally spoke to me..and started in on me about the 300 dollars..and i started crying again cuz...idk. at any other time i woulda just sat there and pretended to listen, nodd my head, and be perfectly fine. im so used to the "im so disappointed in u" speeches- -so it shouldnt have mattered. but it did. that was something that i didnt really need to hear on top of all my insults...ugh. my exact thoughts at that moment were:

"keep em coming God, keep em coming...anyone else wanna take a shot?"- -horrible day. u know those days when u wish u could just freeze time becuz everything is so perfect u never wanna leave...yeah...that WAS DEFINATELY NOT THE CASE that day...

thursday- -AHH! WONDERFUL! NO SCHOOL! i was at my virgillians all day. yeah yeah yeah i AM still grounded...but my mom felt sorry for me. and i wanted to see my Mason.man i love her. my favoritest 3 year old in the entire world. mmmmmmmmm. ohhhhh and i gotta see my new zach.good times. and JAMES BRANDON I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! haha

today- -school..womp womp. it was ok. my family and i went to eat tonight for my birthday. we went to the West End and ate at...Newports? its a seafood restaurant? idk. it was good. yay for expensive high class food. then we came home, gill && samm came over and we all played catchphrase. more fun. then...me gill and samm went to sonic && then matt woolys to play LIFE with him michael S && mikedeezy. but my dad called and made me come home...house arrest. ugh. jerkface.

so yeah...yay for...crappy&& random good moment weeks.

ALEX COMES HOME iN 11 DAYS!!! Mii BiRFFDAY iS iN 4 DAYS! && Mii SURGERY iS iN 10 DAYS!!!! YAYYYYYYYYY!!!! OHHHHHHH yeah..more good news! my mom told me that i getta go out with my friends for my birthday this week...and were gonna go eat && then to the Dallas World Aquarium. im soooooooooooo ciiiiited. so if u wanna go...let me know!

hmmmm...alrighty well...me and emily are watchin Jackass && Steves about to get his butt peirced. later loves <333

Currently Reading Till We Have Faces: A Myth Retold By C.S. Lewis see related

i SHOULD be working on my allusion journal for golnick...but..im procrastinating. benay wants me to dye her hair and im still waitin on gill cuz shes supposed to help me...yeah yeah i know excuses excuses...

hmm..ok so today i went over to this ladys house for an RSVP project with school...it was me olivia lindsay and stephanie. this lady was so cute..shes not very old but she hassa bad back so she needed help vacuuming and gardening and all that fun stuff so of course we wanted to help. ok so she has this 13 year old daughter that lives with her..and shes HORRIBLE to her. i wanted to smack her in the back of the head and scream at her "YOUR MOTHER SPENT GOD KNOWS HOW LONG IN LABOR GIVING BIRTH TO YOU DADGUMMIT SO YOU BETTER BE GREATFUL YOUR EVEN ALIVE!" oh man...she made me so mad. lol even OLIVIA had to bite her tongue..that tells u something right there if u know olivia..but yeah. so..today...i let my mom know how much i love her. not that i dont tell her every day...but..i just wanted to remind her again i guess...

another reminder...i love my friends. gill && samm...idk where id be w/out yall. after all this crap with everyone else..its like yall are my legs. "ya know why...cuz were a freaking TRiPOD" haha i lush chall

boys...ugh. blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. thats what i have to say to that. i went on a date...friday night? hmm good times.  he was really hott too..i mean..he was sweeter than alotta other guys ive dated too dont get me wrong..but aw he was so...cutehmm..

alrighty..well..i have homework calling my name. i miss one day of school becuz of an ongoing PANiC ATTACK and i get punished with oodles of homework. go figure. later loves <3333

Currently Listening Under My Skin By Avril Lavigne see related

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AH!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BiRTHDAY iS iN 10 DAYS!!!!

AND MY SURGERY iS iN....

16 DAYS!!!!

HECK YES! but please excuse me if i dont getta big head and post a million pictures of myself on here...im sorry. i dont like arrogance. i dont like people that possess that quality either...hmm...yeah..

i got my hair done today..put more red in it...and re-did the black. yay...

alright..well i just wanted to update cuz i was tired of lookin at those pictures. later loves.

Currently Reading The Scarlet Letter By Nathaniel Hawthorne see related

hey kids! well..im supposed to be doing homework...but we took our Christmas card pictures yesterday so..heres a few!

alrighty...later dudes.

Currently Listening A Fever You Can't Sweat Out By Panic! At the Disco see related

tomorrow is Thanksgiving!!!- -and i am thankful for...my amazing friends, my family, && my health. yeah sure..laugh about it. but theres other people out there that have it way worse..so be thankful dadgummit

last night..nothing really. hung out w/ mi amors <333 && chilled at "the lane" lol as A.T calls it. this morning..woke up early w/ gill && watched Kill Bill 2. then samm finally got up...and we all went shopping...fun stuff. i lushchu puntindoodles

tonight..i think im just gonna stay here..cuz im not feelin too peachy && plus tomorrow is thanksgiving. yay for more family time than ill EVER need. ah.

ya know what? ok i was browsing through other peoples xangas and just looking at pictures and stuff...and ive noticed that in almost all the pictures..everyone looks..sad or something. idk. maybe its an emo thing. but i think now..smiling is so overrated. like really. who just looks into a camera with their friends and smiles becuz theyre really happy? idk. maybe its just me. i read into everything like a madwoman so maybe its just my imagination...whatever.

Lately I'm alright
and lately I'm not scared
I've figured out,
that what you do to me feels like
I'm floating on air.
I don't need to know right now 
all I know is I believe
in the very thing that got us here
and now I can't leave

but when I look in the mirror
I see giirl a whose been through so much
and yet, still finds a way to smile at the past.
She still loves with all her heart
or whats left of it..
& when you see her walk down the hall
I can gaurantee you she'll have her head up high

- -thats me at this point...hm..

hmm...my new love<3333 Panic! at the Disco...I Write Sins Not Tragedies

Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...

Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...

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